Rant ~ Enjoy

This going to be very random and all over the place. Its stuff that has been on my nerves all coming to surface in the form of a blog. If you think something may be about you or something you did, could be, if you get pissed off... Sorry click the the X at the top right of the screen. :)

-If you're in a relationship, awesome I'm happy for you, especially if its a good one. But reguardless good or bad do you really need to blow up your friends timelines with status updates about your other half? Honestly I bet 99% of the people dont want to read about what's going to happen when you're together. We know you love them or you wouldn't be with them. Changing your status to married when your not is stupid STOP! Grow up last time I checked were all out of 2nd grade by now. Not trying to say every post I make is majorly important and is not somewhat repetative but when its nearly every damn post, its fucking annoying and makes people hide your posts or at least it does me. I dont care about your I love you (insert name here) or I love (insert name here) post it on their fucking wall not as your status all the time.

-When you ask someone to help you run something for THEM, here's a giant clue DONT IGNORE THEM! Your not responding to me even when its about you I can't do shit for you to help YOU. I'm not Criss Angel I cant read your mind or know what your going to do next. Clearly you didnt want my help as bad as you made it seem in the first place. Its pretty ignorant to just use someone like that. And if you ever do decide to contact me, which I doubt will happen and you get irritated with me for not doing anything I'm going to tell you off, because when you dont respond to anything for months yeah I fucking stopped trying to do shit.

-Dont come looking for a small amount of money when you just got paid 50K what 3 years ago after a divorce. Question where the hell did that money go? Oh yeah probably on something that was a midlife crisis purchase and to your bills cause I know without looking your pay check is minimal. Here's a hint GO TO WORK more than 2 days a week. For fuck's sake I only work 16hrs a week and I work the same or more hours than you in a week. And I'm just about 29 years younger than you and I'm more responsible. Oh how I could go on about this and more on this subject, but I will stop before I get nasty.

-If you're a mutual friend.. correction if you were a mutual friend and its very obvious how one feels and that they've been through hell and back and through hell again. Dont contact me trying to fix things cause I'm pretty sure everyone knows where I stand and knows why. Then say you dont want to get in the middle, contacting me is putting yourself in the middle honey! For the 4th time at least I reach out to you to be the bigger person and offer to talk to you to once again try to express to you where I'm coming from and you say ok sounds good. Then a month goes by and I hear nothing from you about getting together to talk. I'm fucking done, I can only get burnt so many times, enjoy your life.

Part II probably coming soon.

Meeting Johnathan Hillstrand -- best night of my life!

It was only a one week wait to meet my idol and the person I love the most in this world, but it felt like forever. Finally the day came, Saturday April 2nd 2011, after a subway ride and a bus ride the Seaport World Trade Center was in my sights -- I dont think I've ever walked so fast in my life, and it was the first time my heart wasnt pounding from almost running but because of the man I was about to see and meet. I honestly couldn't get down the stairs fast enough, we buy the admission tickets and I booked it around the place trying to find where Johnathan was located, I was told later at dinner that I looked like a line backer going through the place with my head whipping back and forth trying to find him. My Dad said he would've hated to be the person who got in my way, because I would have ran them over and probably not have looked back -- and he would be right. I was a woman on a mission.
Looked to the right and I caught the glimpse of a banner and all I saw was Jo and Hil under it, looked back at Dad and Kevin pointed to that direction and kinda yelled out he's over there! And I booked it over there, as I was walking up to the line I saw him and it stopped me dead in my tracks -- first time in my life I have ever been starstruck, not going to lie I screamed a little but no one heard me. I get in line and for the first five minutes I could not for the life of me take my eyes off of him, and kept thinking I've waited six and a half years for this moment and its here, I'm in line to meet Captain Johnathan Hillstrand. Usually any meet and greet I go to I always end up talking and having a good time with the people around me -- I know shocker for me who's always shy. I didn't think I would at this one because I figured I would be too caught up in just staring at Johnathan taking everything in, but I was wrong on that I had some really fun people around me; minus the weird guy in front of me, even Johnathan thought he was odd -- I'll explain that later. The girls behind me were hysterical, I think we were laughing 90% of the time, at one point we were doing the signature crab jig in line and noticed about 15 minutes later there was a camera filming the whole signing and we were like "shit! I hope that didnt get on camera!" The couple behind them were fun too, some random guy who clearly was somewhat intoxicated walked up the husband of this couple and asked what the line was for, when you looked about 50 feet in front of us he would have saw not only Johnathan but a huge banner with his name and from Deadliest Catch, well the man without missing a beat goes "were in line for popcorn." the guy walked away! We all laughed so hard and couldn't believe that happened.
After being in line for about an hour, I was next to go up on stage and meet him, to say I was freaking out is an understatement for sure. Before I did one of the staff went up and was talking to him, I think he was telling him to speed it up because it was getting late. Well while this guy was talking to him, the girl behind me took a picture of Johnathan drinking water and says "well there's a picture of Johnathan Hillstrand drinking water." we started laughing and apparently Johnathan heard cause he looked down at us and started laughing which made us turn red and laugh.
The whole week before this moment I was trying to plan what I was going to say to him or at least an idea of things to say... well as soon as I saw him everything I had thought of ran out of my brain, I had no clue what to say to this man, so I winged it. The only thing I knew for sure was I'm not leaving this place without a hug.
I went up the steps and walked towards him and said "I've heard your hugs are awesome" and I just hugged him, he hugged me and said "Aww thank you" and for the record he does give the BEST hugs ever, any hug I get from here on out will now be compared to his, and I dont think anyone will ever be able to top his. Luckily one thing I had thought about came to me, and that was tell him why the flowers on my tattoo are the colors they are, and I'm glad I did it, honestly dont think he was expecting me to come out with that, he was sort of speechless in a good way.
Me: "I want to show you something."
Johnathan: "What's that?"
Me: "The flowers on my tattoo are a tribute to Phil by being the colors of his boat."
Johnathan: "Wow, thats really nice. Thats awesome."
Next was the biggest thing I wanted next to the hug and that was a picture with him. I pointed to the camera that was being used and he pulled me in close to him. First time in my life I didnt have to try and smile in a picture it just came natural.
We then went over to the table and he signed my picture, like everyone I meet I had to tell him how to spell my name. He goes to hand it to me, then pulls it back after he glanced at my tattoo again, he takes it and writes Love Ya! in the top right hand corner. I dont know if he does or did that on all autographs he signed for women or not but either way it means the world and more to me.
I didnt want to leave, I wish I could live in that moment forever. My life is not even close to near being over and I can say honestly and fully believe that, that night is and will be the BEST night of my life, there is nothing that can top it. Even if someday I meet him again, the first time will always be the best. It took a good 8 hours for me to be able to stop smiling and get my heart back down to a normal rate.
If I didnt love this man before, I certainly do now. He is such a sweetheart and you can tell unlike a lot of people who become famous from TV shows or whatever, he truly does love and appreciates all his fans. He doesnt rush you through so he can leave he does everything he can to take his time with everyone and make them feel welcome. You dont see that much at all anymore in celebrities. Johnathan Hillstrand is an amazing human being and I feel so lucky to have been able to spend five minutes with him and will cherish those minutes for the rest of my life. This man will forever be in my heart, even when I'm a little old lady, butterflies will still fill my stomach when I think of him. I hope there comes a day when I can meet him again, I'll wait patiently but if it never comes I will be satisfied that I met him once.